getting emotional

"eejun for u i'm sure u'll find someone u like and that likes u"

So I came home after that little X'mas gathering so tired I though I'll just K.O. out my bed. Then again, at the request (read: demand) of my friends, I willed myself (albeit grudgingly) to keep awake, and upload/sent the pics accordingly. So happens that one of my good frens came online and we started some msn conversation and all. In the mood of X'mas and all, the topic of getting attached and all that came up (ok. single pple are always desperate on those X'mas, V Day etc etc)

Suffice to say, eventually, we talked about failed relationships, heartbreaks and those failed-to-start-love-stories. Then that punchline came out:

"eejun for u i'm sure u'll find someone u like and that likes u"

and then a whole series of assurances and blessings exchanges occurred for both of us. hah. but at that moment in time, it was all too much for me to take. sigh. 20 and turning 21 not-so-soon. It's just all that historical baggage re-opened once again. Perhaps not just the love life (or lack thereof) part, but substantially on it. Maybe on actions and choices in the pre-army and army-days too.

But still, all this historical baggage is now being viewed in a new perspective altogether. Not so negative as before, not as critical as I've had been. 3 months ago it still would have been. Now? Its time to grow up and move on with life. Lots of new resolutions, new goals to stick to, and of course in the Zen way, its time to live the moment, and not hold on to the already-has-been or the fleeting future-shall-bes.

2008 shall be a promising year.

thanks bro.


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