some random thoughts

so i've done my second exam as well. again, I shall have to wait till the results are out. One more to go and I'll be done (I hope).

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My friend's blog entry prompted me to think about what I'm gonna do in a few more months time. As an extension of a rather short conversation with another friend of mine, it suddenly occurred to me that in 3 months home, I shall be relieving my duties at my current workplace and reverting back to a student. Now, how cool is that! no students to worry about, no more class-admin, no pedagogies to worry about etc etc. I could go on listing.

But something doesn't quite feel right. It's as if I'm so used to doing all these, and its gonna be stranger to suddenly become a student all over again. Now, there's nothing wrong with being a student - in fact, all of us are learning something from the people around us all the time. But being a student in the academic sense all over again (after almost 3 yrs, if I may add) is really quite a counter-culture shock. Especially when you're back on the "right" side of the good 'ol desk once again. Sitting down there, diligently copying the nuggets of wisdom spewed out by your lecturer, worrying about presentations (or rather, the preparation process, group mates etc), worrying about exam results etc. geez. It's all back to square one.

I guess I just can't reconcile that kind of change at this moment. At the very least, not now. But I shall have to make adjustments with time. As that friend of mine pointed out, suddenly you look at your students and you feel old, though frankly speaking, it wasn't that long since we last sat there. It's gonna be a weird feeling to go hee-hee-ha-ha-ing (sorry about the use of army lingo) all day long, going for orientations and all. But still -

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In any case, I shall worry about that in a while's time. Meanwhile, at least I've did a few km run, about to mark finish my students' assignments and all. hmmm. And I need to find time to study for my last exam. And hit the gym more frequently too. my weekend jogs are also in danger of being phased out too. till then ~